I never told You

I miss those blue eyes How you kissed me at night I miss the way we sleep Like there's no sunrise Like the taste of your smile I miss the way we breathe I see your blue eyes Every time I close mine You make it hard to see Where I belong to when I'm not Around you It's like I'm not with me But I never told you What I should have said No I never told you I just held it in And now I miss everything About you I can't believe I still want you After all the things we've Been through I miss everything about you Without you

Truth

Love who your heart wants not what your eyes want don't worry about what others say or think this love is yours, not theirs. this is for u. it's always been u in my heart. forever and always.

Still... in LOVE with YOU

Lesson Learned

It's been a while that i'm not write.. so many things that I have inside my mind, but I guess I will write what I think the most important at this moment. This morning, I just watched Grey's Anatomy season 6. Actually i don't have interest to watch this serial before, but I give it a try. and what a surprise, it's contains things that i do like and remain me of something.. TRUE LOVE. in the episode that i watched, there is a lover that separated for 50 years. they fall in love for each other but they can't just show the feeling that they have, because it will ruin their friendship. so they kept all the secret with them. and 50 years later, after their couple passed away, they met again in the hospital. imagine this, the old man saw the old lady like a ghost. he never thought that he will see his true love and his first love again! and for the old lady, it was shocking too. they talk a lot about their life, about what they become, bout their fellings for all this time. the old man told the nurse that taking care of him for his surgery, that the lady is his first and trully love. he made a stupid mistake to let her go just because he dont want ruined their friendship. the old lady also told the nurse and the doctor the same story. that she made a stupid mistake and finally God give her chance to make it right. she was married with a good man she said, but that man that she's married ain't Henry. Henry is her first and true love. Henry is the man that took her heart and own it. Henry is the man that have a surgery in the same hospital with her. the best part of her line that make me think is : 'even i was married with a good, funny and responsible man that taking care of me, but he just ain't Henry. i thought that i can find another Henry, but i was wrong. there only one Henry in my whole life.' and i can hold my tears longer.. its start falling from my eyes.. and i thought what a wonderful love that they have.. its been 50 years but they still have the same feeling for each other. timeless love. im still 30 when i write this post, but i think i already know who my true love is. i know that its hard to believe coz i still have chance to meet a lot of man in my life.. but if love about who own my heart, then i better search no further. "for its better to feel love and get hurts than never feel love at all" i guess i agree with that :) its important to not make mistake with love, or let go the love that u have in life, but sometimes its just happen. we dont have power to control it. but if that love comeback to you after 50 or more or less years, do not ruin it again. grab it and enjoy it.. True love n first love is things that make us happy. coz all that we want in this life is to be happy.. to be loved and be in love. with love, Vera :)

11-11-11 11.12PM

whatever you do
whatever you say
hurt me bad
again and again...

but i hate to say that you always have something
that always make me soft..

i hate to say that deep inside,
i always feels that 'aku sayang kamu'

THE SPIRIT CARRIES ON

Where did we come from, Why all we here? Where do we go when we die? What lies beyond And what lay before? Is anything certain in life? They say, "Life is too short," "The here and the now" And "You're only given one shot" But could there be more, Have I lived before, Or could this be all that we've got? I used to be frightened of dying I used to think death was the end But that was before I'm not scared anymore I know that my soul will transcend I may never find all the answers I may never understand why I may never prove What I know to be true But I know that I still have to try "Move on, be brave Don't weep at my grave Because I am no longer here But please never let Your memory of me disappear" Safe in the light that surrounds me Free of the fear and the pain My questioning mind Has helped me to find The meaning in my life again Victoria's real I finally feel At peace with the girl in my dreams And now that I'm here It's perfectly clear I found out what all of this means If I die tomorrow I'd be all right Because I believe That after we're gone The spirit carries on

1 plus 1

If I ain't got nothing, I got you, If I ain't got something, I don't give a damn, Cause I got it with you, I don't know much about about algebra, but I know 1+1, equals 2 And it's me, and you. That's all we'll have when the world is through I don't know much about guns, but I, I've been shot by you I don't know when I'm gonna die but I hope, That I'm gonna die by you! I don't know much about fighting, but I know I will fight for you Just when I ball up my fists I realize, I'm laying right next to you Baby we ain't got nothing but love, And Darlin' you got enough for, The both of us, Make love to me, When my days look low, Pull me in close, And don't let me go, Make love to me. So when the world's at war, Let our love heal us all, help me let down my guard Make love to me Me, me, me, me... Make love to me Me, me, me, me... Just ME.